True Thoughts

Sometimes, I have things to say but I don't know what they are. I don't know how to form letters and words of what I am thinking. It is so especially on a cloudy day like today. I read a book and absorb myself into the world of imagination and fantasy but I fail to do so because of my reality of people asking me questions and my thoughts wander off to another place which cannot be seen by human eyes. I would sit, or stand, in front of a computer screen without being able to read anything on the screen because of blurry vision as my thoughts travel to another world where my thoughts are the absolute truth. I can make anything happen in this world as long as I desire it. I am loved, I am wealthy, I am a hero, I am not me. It's more fun not being me. It's more fun to defy everything that is not bound by the law of nature or the universal law.
Do I long for something more? Do I wish to be something more? What am I even writing on this blog? This is truly what I think almost everyday. Not those questions specifically but I ask myself questions and I try to answer them. I go back and forth with myself and have a conversation in my head. This has been the best method of coming up with answers and profound discoveries. I am not crazy; Perhaps, I am. I don't see being crazy as a bad thing. It just means that I am different than everybody. I am either above or below average. I am fine with that. I realized that I am a Psychology major mostly to analyze myself and understand myself. I have to know who I am first and help myself before I can help others. If I can't do that for myself, how am I supposed to figure out who other people are and help them?
Don't be creeped out about my thoughts. I am sure once in a while you think about the same thing. Maybe not the same thing but you think the same way. You wish to express yourself but nothing comes out except "I don't know." It's good to let it out time to time. I felt like all the burdens have been lifted from me as I express how I am feeling and what I am thinking. Even if I don't actually post this, I would still feel like I have expressed everything I wanted to somebody because it's coming out of my head into something that can be read and understood by others.