Spring Will Come

Spring Will Come

Under a grey winter sky

I pause while passing by

Dryness bares its fangs

On a bare thread hangs

Leaves desperate to hang on

Down below the grounds beckon.

For a moment a little doubt

Would new leaves sprout? 

From surround serene and calm

I hear the winds hum

No doubt the spring will come. 

Pradip Chattopadhyay

The indexing competition must be over because I am blogging a lot more now.

I found this poem and I like it. I feel like it's describing my life. One of my favorite people, Bro. C., told me long ago that spring will come after winter. It's true. Everything seems so dead and lifeless right now but spring always comes.

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Dream, Rain, Song

This morning I woke up feeling kind of sad and depressed; I had a dream that bothered my peace. I don't remember exactly what I dreamt but I remember crying and being very upset about something. How could emotions from a dream carry over to the real life? I can't answer that even though I am a (future) Psychologist.

Basically, the day didn't start out the way I would like it to but I tried to cheer myself up. I tried watching Mormon Message videos such as this one: 

and read the Book of Mormon. Unfortunately, it helped only a little.

Then I heard raindrops outside as I was getting read to go to work. It was still dark out and I couldn't see well but I saw that the ground was wet. It was either raining or rained already. I love rain but today it just made me even more somber (I think that is the best word to describe how today is). It's not in a "life stinks" way but it's just "where is this going" kind of a way.

I guess you didn't know this but I wrote a song to ask a girl out on a date. It was fun writing the song so I've been trying to write another song; however, even though I figured out what chords I want to use and strumming patterns, I couldn't think of what I wanted to write about.

The future is unknown because we only live in the present; however, we know the future because we made choices because of the future. I have no idea what I am saying right now but I want to do my best. I don't want to give up easily anymore. I want to keep trying and trying. Even if I get hurt trying, I know that I've done my best and the Lord will consecrate my efforts.

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A Change of Seasons

If you live in Utah, did you notice that leaves of trees on mountains are turning red? It means that summer is over and fall/winter is approaching.

With the change of seasons, I am starting to change also. Long time ago (about a year and half ago), I posted about "pumping-up" in the morning. I started doing that again, not because I feel down or anything but to remind myself that it's all about my attitude. If I am in a positive mood, I will have a great day.

Do you want to know what I say? I say to myself, "Kyoo, you are such a good looking man! Look at you smiling! Every girl would love to see that Asian smile! You are going to have a such a great day today because you are happy! It's going to be an awesome day! You are going to have so much fun!" Obviously, it's not the same everyday but that's pretty much what I say. (I never forget to say something about girls loving me though.)

Another change I noticed in me is that I look back on my life and things that happened and be grateful for them. When I am grateful for them, I can't help but smile. Smile about how great my life is. Smile about so much gratitude I feel. Sometimes I even laugh out loud when no one is around me. I do have a great life. I have wonderful friends. I had so many opportunities to learn and grow physically, spiritually, and emotionally. And I do believe that I grew in those three aspects of my life.

I also have noticed myself thinking, "Consider the lilies of the field how they grow" to remind myself that God is the one who's leading my life and everything will happen according to His plan and His time. I just need to follow any promptings I receive.

I went for a run yesterday and when I got really tired, I walk on the path by the duck pond. I watched the water how it was moving. I watched leaves of trees dancing to the wind. I watched a leaf I picked up which turned and bent as I fidgeted with it. I want to be like that water that moves to where it's supposed to go. I want to be like one of those leaves that dance as the Lord guides them. I want to be like that leaf to humble myself to do whatever the Lord wants me to do.

One change that I am trying to avoid is getting a haircut even though I kind of do want to get a haircut. The reason for not getting a haircut is because I don't want to spend money on a haircut and I got a haircut about three weeks ago. I think I am going to grow my hair out a little bit longer (maybe another month) then get a haircut.

What changes do you see in your life?

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All Things Bright And Beautiful

Easter came and went... 

I enjoy seeing these trees everyday when I go outside.

Looking up at my house from the front lawn.

What I see everyday when I walk outside.

Some people enjoyed nice warm weather on Easter.

Ants liked the Sun too...and my leg.

Looking up from where I was.

The end of Easter.

I heard a noise outside and when I looked out, I saw a woodpecker. Not a very rare sight in Provo.

Banana bread I baked on Sunday. Will be great for my home-teachees.

The cloud looked like a wiener dog.

Rainbow...

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Why I Look Up Often

I look up often. I love clouds. I love the sky. I love trees. I love buildings. I love how everything just compliments each other.

When was the last time you looked up and couldn't take your eyes off of whatever you were looking at?

This morning as I was walking on campus, I saw a jet plane fly by. As it did so, it created "clouds" (I actually don't know if they are considered clouds) behind it and those clouds with the Sun created shadows on clouds above them. Kind of like the picture on the right.

I absolutely loved it. I thought it was one of the coolest things ever. Man-made clouds and natural clouds made such beauty.

Then I looked around me. I saw people walking by, looking at their books, working on something...busy. Too busy to look up at something so beautiful. They were missing out. I wanted to stop someone and tell them to look up at what I was looking at. I wanted to share what I loved. But I didn't. I didn't because I knew people would have thought that I was crazy or weird. They probably wouldn't have cared as much as I did.

Am I too busy to see what's around me? Am I too caught up with worries? Do I give more time to God and His creations to appreciate them more often?

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The Best Is Yet To Come

"We can't predict all the struggles and storms in life, not even the ones just around the next corner, but as persons of faith and hope, we know beyond the shadow of any doubt that the gospel of Jesus Christ is true and the best is yet to come." -Elder L. Tom Perry-

I have this quote, along with many others, posted on my wall. I love this quote and I say cite it to myself over and over again when I get discouraged.

Today when I was walking home from a class, I realized that some grasses are turning green. I thought, 'Spring is just around the corner.' Even though we didn't have a terrible winter, I welcomed this sign of spring. I was excited then I remembered the quote, "the best is yet to come."

What does that mean to me? It means that I am very hopeful of the future. I know I am doing something that the Lord wants me to do and by doing so, I will be able to receive a blessing that the Lord has promised me long ago. I still make mistakes but I know what I am doing is exactly what I need to be doing right now. I don't doubt or fear that what I am doing is not what the Lord wants me to do because it is inviting me to do good.

Spring comes after winter no matter what as blessings come after trials.

"Wherefore, whoso believeth in God might with surety hope for a better world, yea, even a place at the right hand of God, which hope cometh of faith, maketh an anchor to the souls of men, which would make them sure and steadfast, always abounding in good works, being led to glorify God." Ether 12:4

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